Yep, I fail.

by Nichole on November 2, 2011 · 8 comments

in MY GIRLS,RANDOM

written this morning:

To be honest, this has not been my best week. For starters my baby E has been sick… again. This girl has had a fever at the very least, no exaggeration, once every two or so weeks for the past year, and colds more frequently than that. Add any of the rest of us getting sick (which we do) and it feels constant. Don’t judge us. *judge judge*.

Needless to say over the past year I’ve become accustomed to sickness looming overhead. I’ve spent far too many days in a house that I can’t possibly catch up on (if there is such a thing as ‘catching up’). I’ve even developed a slight fear of making any plans too far in advance, for worry that I will have to cancel due to sickness; a reason that I’m quite bored of.

So she’s been sick for the past 6 days most of which I’ve spent sitting with her, and to be honest, it’s made me one bit cranky and the other bit stressed! Here I sit, even now, with my sad girl on my lap who wants nothing but to cuddle or fuss and all I can think about are the clothes I should be washing, dishes I should be doing, errands I should be running, projects I should be finishing, emails I should be responding to, blog I’m trying to write, etc. Yet here I sit trying to remind myself of my ever-so-frequent reminder “there will come a moment when….”. Sure I won’t miss the sickness, but I can tell you what I will miss: I will miss this stage; her sick kisses, her arms around my neck, her body tiny enough to hold in a little ball on my lap, and when her woes were simple enough to be fixed by my taking time to sit and cuddle her and love on her. Life I suppose will not always be so easy. I’ve come to realize that every day I am faced with the choice of what area I am willing to fail in. I do fail. Every.single.day. Shocker, I know. What’s tricky for me has been learning to embrace my failures; to accept the fact that I will fail daily and to remind myself that the importance doesn’t lie in whether or not I fail, but it’s in where I chose to be my success. While some weeks there may be areas other than my kids that need my attention, this week has not been one of them.

So here’s to having laundry covering my bedroom floor (hey it’s ‘sorted’!), clean loads by the washer yet to be processed, a sink full of dishes, presents that need to be bought, carpet that needs to be vacuumed, emails that need a response…. perhaps I will get to them tomorrow… perhaps

 

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  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    Oh that’s just not right.  I am asking God to heal your little on this morning.  But you are right in just taking this time to be with her and love on her.  All of the other stuff can wait!  Prays for strength for you too!

  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    Oh that’s just not right.  I am asking God to heal your little on this morning.  But you are right in just taking this time to be with her and love on her.  All of the other stuff can wait!  Prays for strength for you too!

  • http://www.charisscofield.com charis

    you are a good mama.

    my recent post: a list of random thoughts

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Jenney-Mason/1359309272 Jenney Mason

    Your such a good mom. Praying for long lasting healthy over you guys, divine health and strong immune systems. 

  • Leahmariv

    Oh yes this is so true and such a good reminder! I love you and am praying for you

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    Thanks!

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    Thanks Jenney! :)

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    Love you too! :)

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