“E”

by Nichole on July 29, 2011 · 8 comments

in MY GIRLS,PEOPLE WORTH KNOWING

Dear E,

Today is your birthday!!! You are a whole year old! I can’t even believe it myself.

birth story pics by Myriah Grubbs Photography

This year has been quite the year for us as a family, but mainly for you. You endured probably around 50 days of feverish sickness in a matter of 4 to 5 months. You’ve been in the hospital with RSV, and you’ve been at home with pneumonia. Between 3 – 9 months you only gained about 10 ounces, mostly because you kept getting the flu and losing what you spent the previous week gaining… Girl,  I can honestly say this time with you has taught me so much as a mom. It’s taught me to be thankful because even at your worst, I always knew you’d pull through – not all families are so lucky. It’s taught me to keep my trust in God even more, that He loves you and cares for you so much more than I do (and that HAS to be a lot, because I stinkin’ LOVE you). And oddly enough, it’s taught me that it’s okay to need help sometimes, (hopefully that one sticks too ;) ).

Through this year you have remained such a sweet baby. The months you kept getting sick, you were not cranky and fussy (though I don’t think that those things define a baby) but you were so strong and cuddly, and just sat on my lap sucking your two fingers contently.

(Which by the way… I think you might be finished with since you haven’t sucked them for the last week… believe it or not I’m pretty sad about this, though I know it’s for the best and I’d rather this habit break naturally for you then have to be broken).

You were my smallest born (though not by much) at 8 lbs and 13 ounces, but you will be by far my smallest 1 year old at what I’m guessing to be in the 17lbs range. I never thought I would have such a tiny baby and I have LOVED it!!

I remember for your baby shower I was given a 6-9 month sundress, you being due at the end of July, I thought there was no WAY you’d end up wearing it but I hung it in your closet anyway, figuring I’d make it work in the winter with a cardigan and jeans underneath. Boy was I wrong! Come Summer and it’s still a little bit big on you, but cute as ever. Just one more reminder that babies, much like life, are unpredictable. (In the picture above you are 11 months & wearing a 0-3 month dress, ha!)

window pics by Leah Mari Photography

Over the last few weeks your personality has been shining through and girl you are a crack up! You might be small but you certainly don’t let that hold you back! You climbed up on the couch before you’ve even been able to walk. You are persistent and when you want something, you go for it. You are spunky and though you are often quiet and content, you also love to yell. You growl often… seriously… Your fingers have gotten you through hard times, and even though you haven’t been sucking on them over the last week, you have chewed them as though they are the world’s best teething toy. You love food and at this point aren’t very picky. Your sisters can so easily make you laugh. Right now you love to often stand randomly in the middle of the room, but have yet to take a step. You say “mama, dada, moe (more), nana (for food/banana), num num (yummy), dat (that), ha (hi), and ba (bye)”.

newborn pics by Myriah Grubbs Photography

E I love you so much. The funny thing about those of us who’ve had more than one baby is we always love our kids so much that there’s a small part of us that can’t imagine having enough love for another. I remember when K was first born, I spent the first week sporadically crying because, though I always wanted lots of children, I was unsure if I could go through with having any more because I didn’t think there could possibly be any love left in my heart. I was shocked with the love that I had for her. But you know what? With H, and then you, I have been shocked with how love multiplies. Just when I think there is no way I could love you more than I do, I wake up the very next morning loving you even more.


Happy Birthday Lyzy! Know this: today I love you so much more than I could ever express, but the day you get to read this, it will only be a fraction of how much I have for you. I can’t wait to watch you grow.

love,
Mommy

One year ago today… & yesterday… man was I hurting ;) . Why you ask? Well it’s because I was giving birth to my sweet E. Most of those 2 days were filled with… well…. pain… & disappointment in how my labor was going. At one point I was even convinced I was giving birth to a mean child which to this day makes me laugh from embarrassment. Goodness was I delusional, I couldn’t have been more wrong. I’m not a huge fan of labor, but I sure am a fan of my sweet baby.

July 29th introduced me to my 3rd baby, though I became worried that it wouldn’t and I’d have to wait until July 30th (thanks Myriah for encouraging me to push for being 29 and having a baby on the 29th!! Though I had little control I suppose ;) ). Those who weren’t there might not believe it, but I swear to you she came out smiling… well after the intial newborn cry, if you need the whole truth. She won my heart the second I held her warm body in my arms. And though her birth gave me more surprises than I anticipated, I would do it all over again to have her in my life.

I love you my one year old girl! You have blessed my life and I can’t imagine what it would look like without you in it :)

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  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Myriah-Grubbs/100000414737414 Myriah Grubbs

    Yep. Love her!!!!! And my boys think she belongs to them, haha.

  • Anonymous

    I think she did come out smiling, and for sure she was looking into your eyes even while not all the way out ….. I have never seen anything like it!!!  It was the most amazing birth (once she was coming out!!) ….. and such an wonderful privilege to be there and ‘help’ coach :) …. you did great my baby girl:)
    I LOVE LOVE this Elyza ….. !!!!!  
    LOVE being your mom and her nonnie:)

  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    You have a precious one there.  Happy birthday Elyza!

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    You are right it was one of the most amazing experiences once she started coming out! I wish everyone could experience that part of it. So much like an out of body experience for me at least, and she sooo was looking in my eyes. Awww.

    Love you too!

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    Thanks! I think so too! :) :)

  • http://www.blognotperfect.com Nichole

    haha, they TOTALLY do. I’m praying they get some kind of version of her, you know it! hehe. 

  • http://www.charisscofield.com charis

    she is such a cutie.  you have been an amazing mommy in all the ups and downs this whole year has held.  i am thankful for her being in our life as our niece. 

  • Leahmariv

    she is soooo cute i just love her. great blog post!

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